My first experience with Reiki was something I never expected, a sensation hard to grasp unless you have gone through it yourself.
I know everyone’s journey, and experience with Reiki is different, even when I talked to Jan, My Reiki master friend, her experience was very different from mine. Maybe because I went in with no expectation, or I am more sensitive to holistic experiences, but my first taste of Reiki was out of this world.
What Started This Journey?
Simply put – I was desperate! After 3 years of trying, I was honestly ready to give anything a try before going for IVF. My friend has gone through it, and I know it is a costly and emotionally draining experience. Even though IVF have a high success rate, there is still no guarantee.
I was already on Chinese medicine for 6 months by then, my period was regular, and the doctor said I should be ready now, so it was just a matter of time. So after a few months of trying and still nothing, I was getting frustrated. My husband and I gave ourselves a deadline; if we weren’t pregnant by December 2018, we would give IVF a try.
Luckily enough, that was the time when I reconnected with my boarding school friend Jan. Even though we are close, I was quite scared to ask her to do Reiki on me. Maybe it was the fear of her saying “No,” or not knowing what to expect, but through desperation and curiosity, I asked, and Jan gracefully and happily agreed to do Reiki on me, and that was when everything changed.
I had zero expectation on the Reiki session, mainly because I have no idea what to expect. I thought worst-case scenario if it doesn’t work, I will try just something else. So I went in with an open mind and just let Jan do her thing.
She put on some music and asked me to close my eyes and lie down on my sofa. Although I couldn’t see what she was doing, I can feel her hands close to my face. She wasn’t touching me at first, but I can feel her heat and energy as she gets to work. She slowly works down my body before going back to my head again. She told me she could feel blockages in my sacral chakra (around the womb area) and that she will guide me through to release these blockages within me. (Honestly, I wasn’t quite sure what she was talking about at this point; I thought I would just
go with the flow.)
She asked me to imagine stepping out of my crown chakra (meaning imagine stepping out of the top of my head, as I didn’t know what that meant, so she had to explain it to me in laymen’s terms.) that was when the session got interesting. As she guided me through this process, I felt my head expanding. I felt my mind opening up and stretching, like an accordion being pulled and about to be played. This sensation was like nothing I have ever felt before, I felt my mind split into 3 different levels and every time one level hits a limit it stops and the next level will start to ascend.
She would ask me questions, and I will answer, as the session went on; I just started to tear up and cry. Little did I know that I was releasing all the build up tension and emotions that I was repressing inside. At one point I was crying quite uncontrollably, but it felt amazing like a weight have been lifted off my chest and shoulders. She guided me through issues she can see and feel that is causing the blockages and as I talked and let all these emotions out, she will release them so they will no longer cause blockages.
After the session, I felt great, even though I must have spent at least half an hour crying. I felt lighter and more relaxed. I am sure some of you might think that I must be high as a kite, but I can reassure you that I have never done drugs before, so this was just purely a spiritual and holistic healing experience.
What Happened After
After this session, I was late, and I haven’t been late for a while, so I took a pregnancy test. The result – a faint positive sign for pregnancy, I was ecstatic and called my husband straight away. As it wasn’t a solid positive line, we agreed to take another one two days later to see if we were really pregnant.
Unfortunately, the next two pregnancy tests I took came back negative - It was heartbreaking. I broke down and cried with disappointment thinking that I had another early miscarriage. So I booked an appointment with my OBGYN to see what was happening.
Surprisingly when I saw both my Chinese and Western doctor, both their reaction was quite positive. They said that they wouldn’t consider this as an early miscarriage, but rather a missed opportunity. They told me what most possible happened was the sperm and egg did ‘meet’ but they never successfully bounded and developed to the next stage. They both saw it as a good sign that something was happening after so long and told me for the next three months it would be easier to conceive and they were right.
I told Jan right after what happened, and she was also very positive about the whole situation as well. She comforted me and told me that I should see this as a good sign, as it is an indication that I should be able to get pregnant naturally. She asked me if I would ever consider going to Thailand to do a session with her teacher Mohana and that is when everything was put into motion.
Life is funny this way, it will unfold itself in due course, and everything will slot into place. Jan and I reconnected at a time that we were supposed to; I was at a point where I wanted to seek for something more and open-minded enough to try. Jan was on a journey of her own launching her new vintage handbag business, so she was in Hong Kong more often. It was merely life unfolding itself and showing us the way.
If you want to read more about my Reiki experience with Mohana, please leave me a comment below. My experience with Mohana gets very interesting, something that I thought I would only ever read about but never experienced first hand.
Thank you very much for reading my blog. I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I did writing it.
Sending you love and positive thoughts,